On Tuesday I went to go see the Manics perform, in it's entirety, for the first time, their most accomplished album, The Holy Bible.
I've been a fan for 20 years. Some of these songs have never been played before. This is the one thing I've been looking forward to since my son died.
They were good. They played very well. I was too short to see much of them on stage but I'm always too short to see much of them on stage. They noodled a lot. They are different musicians to their 20 years younger selves and so they played the music differently. It was good. I got emotional, of course I did, it's a Manics gig, I've had a pretty shit 6 and a half months and I'm a cliche. But! For a few seconds, for a little while, I forgot my troubles. I felt OK enjoying the gig. I felt OK being out. I didn't feel guilty. This was the first time since June that I have been in such a big crowded environment and it didn't freak me out. That's good. I also started signing to 4st 7lbs and This is Yesterday. I haven't really voluntarily and unconsciously signed since June.
They did 2 sets. The first was the Holy Bible in full. Then there was a 10 minute break and then they did a mix of hits, songs from Futurology and rarely played. And a little bit of Last Christmas of course.
I wore a leopard print skirt and a DC Roller Derby girls vest:
https://twitter.com/SarangaComics/status/544890981448167425/photo/1
No one commented on my vest. There's a distressing low number of comic fans out there. Or maybe there were lots and they all thought I was a fake geek girl (ha!).
I didn't come out of the gig feeling elated and buzzing. Of course I didn't, I imagine it will be a long time before I feel elated and buzzing again. But, I am glad I went. I'm grateful for the chance to be there and I'm grateful for how I could forget my troubles for just a short while.
I recommend you go listen to the Holy Bible now. There are various playlists on youtube, this is one of them:
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL0F4BA11B133BFBA0
I've been a fan for 20 years. Some of these songs have never been played before. This is the one thing I've been looking forward to since my son died.
They were good. They played very well. I was too short to see much of them on stage but I'm always too short to see much of them on stage. They noodled a lot. They are different musicians to their 20 years younger selves and so they played the music differently. It was good. I got emotional, of course I did, it's a Manics gig, I've had a pretty shit 6 and a half months and I'm a cliche. But! For a few seconds, for a little while, I forgot my troubles. I felt OK enjoying the gig. I felt OK being out. I didn't feel guilty. This was the first time since June that I have been in such a big crowded environment and it didn't freak me out. That's good. I also started signing to 4st 7lbs and This is Yesterday. I haven't really voluntarily and unconsciously signed since June.
They did 2 sets. The first was the Holy Bible in full. Then there was a 10 minute break and then they did a mix of hits, songs from Futurology and rarely played. And a little bit of Last Christmas of course.
I wore a leopard print skirt and a DC Roller Derby girls vest:
https://twitter.com/SarangaComics/status/544890981448167425/photo/1
No one commented on my vest. There's a distressing low number of comic fans out there. Or maybe there were lots and they all thought I was a fake geek girl (ha!).
I didn't come out of the gig feeling elated and buzzing. Of course I didn't, I imagine it will be a long time before I feel elated and buzzing again. But, I am glad I went. I'm grateful for the chance to be there and I'm grateful for how I could forget my troubles for just a short while.
I recommend you go listen to the Holy Bible now. There are various playlists on youtube, this is one of them:
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL0F4BA11B133BFBA0
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