Ugh Christmas is confusing. I'm grieving C - making it feel like I have nothing to celebrate, yet I also have a tiny tiny bun in my oven that I desperately want to celebrate but I am so fearful of doing so.
On the physical side of things, my pelvis has gone wonky again so I'm booked in to see the osteopath in the new year. I suspect my pelvis was on the wonk before I ever got pregnant, but being pregnant in such quick succession has made it worse. I'll get it fixed. So long as it is OK for labour I don't care what I have to do between now and then.
I still don't have sore boobs. Nausea is coming and going. I was talking about when I started wearing maternity clothes last time. A friend said I was very visibly pregnant at 15 weeks, but wasn't in maternity clothes every day then. I really really want to start swelling and be in maternity clothes soon, because then I think people will recognise me as a mother again. Although then I'll have to start the explanations and remind people that this is filled with terror.
I just want life to stop being so damn hard.
On the physical side of things, my pelvis has gone wonky again so I'm booked in to see the osteopath in the new year. I suspect my pelvis was on the wonk before I ever got pregnant, but being pregnant in such quick succession has made it worse. I'll get it fixed. So long as it is OK for labour I don't care what I have to do between now and then.
I still don't have sore boobs. Nausea is coming and going. I was talking about when I started wearing maternity clothes last time. A friend said I was very visibly pregnant at 15 weeks, but wasn't in maternity clothes every day then. I really really want to start swelling and be in maternity clothes soon, because then I think people will recognise me as a mother again. Although then I'll have to start the explanations and remind people that this is filled with terror.
I just want life to stop being so damn hard.
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